Years after learning that the organization that he was a part of was in fact a cult, Benjamin wakes up and escapes. After attending several churches, some good and some bad, he realizes that he would find answers another way. He embarks upon an intellectual odyssey of study and self-reflection that would ensue for several years. This journey leads to a transformation that caused a change of scenery.

DEDICATION 4
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS 8

PERMISSION ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS 9

1 NIGHTMARES 22

2 SOUL SEARCHING 26

3 UNEXPECTED ESCHATOLOGY 34

Four Views of the Book of Revelation 37

Historicism 37

Preterism 41

The Dating of the Book of Revelation 42

Dispensationalism 47

Idealism 53

The Millennial Views on Revelation Chapter 20 54

Premillennialists Approach 58

Post-Millennialists Approach 59

A-Millennialist Approach 60

An Unexpected Conclusion Reached on

Eschatology 61

4 IN COMES TEXTUAL CRITICISM 66

Old Testament Textual Criticism 72

Specific Textual References 75

5 EARLY CHRISTIANITY 80

Eschatology Again? 90

The Essenes 94

Gnosticism 96

Ancient Egyptian Connection? 102

Ancient Greek Connection? 104

6 DID JESUS CHRIST EVER EXIST? 108

Did Moses Write the Pentateuch? 112

Biblical Archaeology 115

Biblical Schools of Thought 118

Implications for Christianity 121

Testimonium Flavianum 123

The Gospels 125

Did the Apostle Paul Preach a Historical Jesus? 127

Marcion of Sinope and the Apostle Paul 128

The Essenes Again? 135

7 WAKING UP TO SLEEP AGAIN 140

8 THE REALM OF MODERN METAPHYSICS 145

Whipping Excursion into Atheism 149

On Ancient Greece and Egypt 150

Freemasonry Early or Late? 156

Why Discuss Gerald Massey? 162

Scholars within New Age 166

9 TRUTH-SEEKER 173

Regarding my Approach to "Race" 179

10 CONCLUSION 189

ABOUT THE AUTHOR 194

ENDNOTES 196

WORKS CITED 205