"With its keen attention to the language and tactics of the church, Hall's memoir is unique among the assortment of Scientology reports and exposés, offering insight into the certainties that its subjects gain." -The Nation

Contents
Foreword: Knowledge Report

One: Nothing Better To Be

We need you to be a zealot

Claptrap
Enthusiastic devotion to a cause
If God exists, why is he such a bastard?
Training Routines
Dancing through life
This is so weird!
Saint Catherine's wheel
He is kind of a nut case
Nothing better to be
She went Clear last lifetime!
You do know C.S. Lewis was a Christian?
Imagine a plane
Age of Aquarius
Guilt is good
I'm me, I'm me, I'm me
Wills and things

Two: The future of this agonized planet,
the lives of every man, woman, and child...
You do know that guy's a Scientologist?
Your brother's had an accident
Please, please, don't take his mind
That's that Scientology stuff he does
Hope springs eternal
That's Source!
How much electricity?
A comb, perhaps a cat
Flunk. Start.
You could take a look at Doubt
The Ethics Officer
Every sorrow in this world
The true sense of the word
Sunny
Gah
Imagination?
What is true for you is true for you
He has simply moved on to his next level
Because, you know, you did just turn 36
Anasazi
Binding back
That spiritual stuff does matter

Three: After Such a Storm

Modernism?
It doesn't matter
Spit Happens
The loss of nameless things
Pilgrimage Season
Who never left her brother for dead
After such a storm
Professing

Endnotes
Acknowledgements