This confessional reminiscence is part autobiography, part self-help therapy, and part meditation on love. It is the heart of a journal over three decades of a tormented life. While searching for love, the author, a failed playwright and a loner, leads a secret double life. Publicly he is an English professor, but privately a dissolute and self-abusing racetrack tout trapped in a love/hate addiction to the horses.Redemption comes, but comes slow and hard.From an editor:Dear Mr. RosenthalMany thanks for sending your manuscript, I WANT TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS. We publish only plays and musicals for the theater. You will find your manuscript enclosed.I did, however, read your manuscript. The title entranced me. Once I started reading I could not put it down. What a beautiful piece of work. I apologize for keeping it for so long. But I did not want to part with it!Best wishes on your search for a publisher.SincerelyDonna CozzaglioEditorial DepartmentI. E. Clark Publications