Where do I belong? Barbara Gowan sought to answer this question as she searched for the real meaning of family. The product of an interracial relationship in the 1960s, she lived in foster care before her adoption by loving-and complex-parents. In this candid account, she faces her long-standing inner conflicts with race, religion, and identity as she searches for her birth parents and her life's purpose.

Gowan's emotional and inspirational story deals with overcoming abuse, loss, codependency, and rejection. She demonstrates how important the multifaceted concepts of faith, family, and love are in all human relationships, and how they form our sense of self. She shares not only her personal insights and revelations but also concrete strategies from other adoptees and respected professionals.


The result is a compelling narrative that will educate and support members of the adoption and multicultural community. Gowan's deeply personal Christian testimonial provides an honest perspective on these often-challenging conflicts.


"It's powerful and gripping storytelling! Barbara Gowan gives readers a stimulating point of view on adoption and multicultural family relationships."

-Thomas Brooks, author of A Wealth of Family:

An Adopted Son's International Quest for Heritage, Reunion and Enrichment